Okay so it’s been a little while since I wrote anything… well actually, I’ve started about six different blog entries now, and none of them got past a paragraph because I either got distracted or ran out of words, so they were never published. As it seems pointless to me to publish them now, I’ll start over and maybe this one will stick.
…So hello world!! At the moment I’m feeling pretty chipper. After some time alone I’ve been able to reflect a little. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before things can get better – I never believed that until now. Although it seems that lately my physical health has been getting progressively worse with the development of more unexpected pains in unexpected places, my mental health is on the mend. I’m starting to view this struggle as less of a curse and more as an opportunity to learn what (and who) is important in my life. In fact, I can even look at this as a good thing if I want to…I mean… I’m never going to be the same after I get through this… (And I will get through this)… because now I know so much more about myself:
1. I have an incredible tolerance for pain. (Having a baby will be nothing compared to this, so I can check that fear off my list.)
2. I’m totally capable of taking care of myself. And my cat. (If my suspicions are confirmed, and I do become a crazy cat woman instead of finding love and getting married, I’ll be all set.)
3. No matter how many times I get a shot or get blood drawn, I will still be afraid of needles. (I have no practical use for knowing this about myself, but it’s cool to know things.)
Anyway, I’m sure I’ll learn even more interesting things about myself as time goes on. I’ve lost my phone again for the millionth time… maybe I should add “I have an incredible tendency to lose everything” to the list. I’ll have to think about that one. But the crazy thing about losing my phone this time is that now it’s been missing for three days, and I know that when I lost it there was only a single bar of battery left… and when I call it to either make a sad attempt at finding it or to check my voicemail – it still rings! It may be strange that this interests me, but I can’t believe that the battery has not died yet. That’s pretty awesome for a go-phone from Wal-Mart.
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On a more interesting note, Obama was elected president this week, and regardless of your political views, it’s incredible to be a part of history, and Tuesday was an historical day for this country. That’s all I’m going to say about that since I decided a while ago to stay as far away from politics as I can in this blog… But I spent election night with my grandmother, my great aunt, and my great-grandmother… who will be 99 years-old this year (She would probably kill me if she read this.) You would never know that she was as old as she is – she was walking around with apparent ease, and her mind is sharper than mine is half the time. She voted on Tuesday and then stayed up until the wee hours of the morning talking about politics with us as I frantically tried to add up the electors and keep track of states for my geography homework. But I’ve been thinking… it’s incredible… INCREDIBLE… in the century that my great-grandmother has been alive…the things she’s seen… she lived through several wars and saw many political changes… I mean, there was a point when she was denied the right to vote because she was a woman, and in the same lifetime not only was she able to vote, but she took part in an election involving a black presidential candidate and a female vice presidential candidate – somehow I haven’t been able to wrap my mind around it. I mean, if our country can make that kind of progress in her lifetime, what kind of changes am I going to see in mine? I just can’t wait.
November 9, 2008 at 4:49 am
Dear Liz,
Sometimes being alone and reflecting can give you great power as I see by your words. We can get a better appreciation for not only our own self, but get strangth from those around us. I found yours to be a call for healing and this is what I do. I have asked that my message to you be a conduit from God and the Angels to heal you. Find 5 minutes to sit quietly and tell them thank you for my healing being sent to you is through them. And it is so!
As for your great grandmother. Isn’t it just amazing to wonder how much a person of her age has seen in one lifetime! All the technology come and gone and yet to be seen by her. My mother, yes mother, is 96 years old. Think of the stories your grndmother has told you and just in this context alone, wonder what it would be like if she was your mother instead of your great,great grandmother.
I have had advice to give you and that is you mut be out in nature more. Touch trees and plants to energize your root chakra. You will be amazed at what healing vibrations from Mother Earth can do for you. Your days will be brighter from now on, so enjoy the happiness that goes along with it.
Barbara